Apoligies

I am so sorry my posts have been depressing as of late. I want so badly to say things are okay but I am wondering if they really are. I am going to keep my relationship with frank out of this for now. If things change I will bring it up but for now I'm going to focuse on megan!


So I'm going to focuse on happy news. I got a job today and they even said I could start as a shift leader! If the head boss says no she said a few months as a crew member then manager which is fine since i've worked fast food before but never at this particular resturant. I'm excited becuase its not a franchise store so I could possibly transfer to another store at a later date in illinois!! Yay!! things are looking up for me!

Blarg

Another day where I feel rather numb. I want to see frank so bad I'm sick of being away from him I'm hoping I can convince him to let me stay with a friend so I can be with him even if its only a few nights a week :(. I don't know I can only hope right now. If he says no i have an interview for tomorrow so yay.

I'll probably post more later my mind is spinning a little and I can't focuse I suddenly feel pretty down :(

A better day

So today's been a better day. Yesterday dad set me up on his computer since mine isn't working (grr) and after chilling out for a few hours after I woke up i put in applications to try to find a job and then helped dad plant an oak tree in honor of my half brother who passed away after birth and then weeded my step mom's garden. It was fun just talking to dad about the future and hope and what not.  I touched an earth worm and got girly about it he seemed amused.

After we were done i washed up and went to post on forums for a little bit before going down and having dinner which we watched the newest once upon a time. Thats a pretty epic show so I plan on watching it with them every week while i'm here. I talked to frank a little and am excited to go to ACEN next week. Its going to be sooooooo much fun! Anyway i am probably going to submit more applicatoins and then go on to rping and crash for the night.



Parting picture my background on dad's computer:

Hardest thing...

So Frank and I decided to go with the plan and have me move. this was the hardest thing I have ever had to do was leave frank yesturday. I pretty much laid in bed and cried all night last night missing him but talking to him a couple times has made it easier. I really do not want to lose him and hope we can make it threw this. Its a short post to day because i"m still feeling incrediably low. I'll post tomorrow hopefully a better one.

ARGH

SOOO interview update:

Interview one went HORRIBLE. I sat down and WAITED two minuets and he walked up said he wasn't interested because of something on my applicaotion and thanked me for my time and said I should try again in a few months.

heh.. right I'm REALLY going to want to work for someone who wont even let me explain what he was unhappy about! Ugh WHAT EVER. The big complaint was I didn't work for 2.5 years. Because i was a HOUSE WIFE. -_- what ever.

Anyway I went to my friends house to just vent and stop crying from frustration then drove to my other interview. I sat for about an hour waiting to be seen but they were so short staffed and asked me to come back 4 hours later. SOOO I went home, took a nap, THEN went back, sat around another thirty minuets before he sat down.

He seemed impressed with me I read him write 'hard working and dedicated' on the sheet so that was great positivity. I'm going in tomorrow after I get off work for a second interview and HOPEFULLY will get heired. Cross your fingers guys!

Love you!!!!!!!!!

Here's another Doctor Who Pic for you:

Already missed a day? What?!

lol! So I realize I already missed a day. Bad Megan! Sorry guys yesturday was one of the most insane days of my life I was only on my computer at midnight turning on Dilbert so I could go to sleep. Seriously?! Megan didn't go on her computer all day?! No freaking way its the end of the world!!!

But seriously guys! I was driving to the library like I always do planning on siting around twiddling my thumbs when I had to ask WHY?! Why the heck am I doing this? I should TRY to not move, try to stay with frank. So I figure to try to get another job!

Now it was pretty early in the morning. I drove to one shopping center and it was 8:30. Most of the stores opened at nine. So I played on my phone for thirty minuets enjoying the (at the time) cool weather. After that I drove to another one annoyed that stores don't open earlier and I was already up and ready to find a job! Grr! So I drove to a shopping complex where I had worked at a movie theater and remembered that one of the resturants was a 24/7 one so I'm like. 'dude I can work third shift!' so what do I do ? I go in fill out an app and talk to the manager expressing my interest in third shift. Turns out someone who worked at the theater with me was there! Good thing we got along! So we talked and caught up while I worked on my app and I turned it in and I have an interview there at 4!

After that I went to a mall that was about 30 minuets away form my house and walked around for 2 hours putting applications in when I happened across another restruant with a rainforest theme ;). I filled it out talked to the manager and she was talking about me only working friday nights saturday and sundays until I get my feet wet. This would be good since I'm working at a candy store mostly during week days and friday mornings! I have that interview in 45 minuets. I plan on posting (if i have time.. wonder if blogger has an android app) if I get the jobs or not. After that I might go hang out with my friends or go home and sleep.

I've had a horrible migrane since last night :( anyway .. I better go mentally prepare for my first interview. LOVE YOU GUYS!

Ready for my interviews!

Good morning Day 2

My alarm starts blaring every week day morning at 5:15. After five or six snoozes I'm up dragging my feet around trying to get everything together for the day. While yesturday I spent packing getting ready for my move I forgot to set out clothes for my day today. Luckily I woke up at 5:30 this morning with out much of a fight, well less of one then usual.

I got Frank up wondering what he's going to do without me while we settle into life apart, I do hope its only a few weeks - months and I can be back waking him up and dragging my butt out of bed.

So we got up this morning and I was a little short with him because I'm so tired (not a good excuse but this is how most of our mornings go). He goes and showers while i sneeze like crazy since my nose is hating this weather change! Once he's dressed he comes in and takes forever getting his boots on. No joke! I am fully dressed by the time the boots get on and I was still in my jammies when he sat on the bed to start fighting with him.

So we head out the door and i"m shocked. It's 6:09?! We hardly ever make the 6:36 train but today we would! I contemplated getting gas since we had so much time this morning but decided to put it off another day. We sit and talk about nothing for 20 minuets waiting for the train to arrive enjoying our morning together.

So the train comes right when I jokingly say 'your not aloud to touch me.' I always kiss him when he gets on the train, its something I started doing when I was young, I say 'I love you good bye' to all my family and loved ones. I don't want the last thing I say to them to be something angry. Even when I am angry! When I asked for my morning kiss he got his goofy grin and said 'I'm not allowed to touch you' and after a quick 'shut up and kiss me' he kissed me and hurried to get on the train.

I love mornings with him. Just laying in bed and cuddling. Its a GREAT way to start off my day!

I start to drive away and realize CRAP i forgot my uniform at home and I work later today. She I drive back home and run in grabbing it and run back out to my wiating car.... from there its a 30 min drive to see a friend and hang out with them. I am going to miss them deeply when I move so I am getting as much time with them as I possible can before I move. I'm just waiting for them to wake up... I might post more then one post a day.. may not post one at all so far my day is great so yay for happy vlogs.


Also a good morning form the SECOND best doctor I've seen:

Its going to be a great day!

Basic Intro Post

So this is the third blog that I have written with the intent to write in every day. I had one on blogger when I was living with my ex and posted everyday until he dumped me. I had one two years ago where I just vented. So now I plan on trying to write every day ( or as often as I can) on this blog to just get emotions out and update family and friends on my life!

So the first post I give a little background of my life. I'm not sure why I start out with that but it seems to be best, I also do this in my journals that are for my eyes only.


So I'm 26. I've been married to my husband frank for 3 years. We are currently living in Illinois (his home state) while He goes to school, He is a computer science major. I am about to do a move that is going to either strengthen or break us. I am moving in with my dad for a few months (hopefully) and then will be moving back to Illinois with my husband and his best friend and have our own place. Frank would move to Wisconsin if he could so i will not fault him for needing to stay.

I was born and raised in Arizona but I am starting to love the cool weather of Illinois! I am having a hard time thinking of my past when my future seems to loom. I am afraid but excited at the same time, I hope things go well. I will keep you allllll updated :3

This is me by the way....

This is my love frank....


So anyway I will try to post again tomorrow and keep this up to date.